Can't Live With 'em, Can't Live Without 'em

Well, Here we go again! My husband "missed a test" so he's back in the county jail and most likely off to prison. This last time he went through a rehab for a month and by the time he had graduated, I had graduated to a whole new level of drug use and while reaching my new low I had picked up a few friends that my hubby didn't exactly approve of. I completley understand that I made some really bad mistakes and if he doesnt want to be with me because he carries too many resentments, then so be it. I'm scared of this world with out him. The truth is he is almost like a parental figure in my life. He's 20 years older than me, he tries to take care of me, in most respects he was a great guy. Here's the catch; this is an M.D. ( Master Of Deciet) and can spin a story so well the president should put him on the payroll. This leads to many, lengthy prison stays, while I love my man dearly, the drugs the lonliness and feelings of abandonment I allow to overwhelm me and I offten find myself in situations unbecoming for a wife.