Some days like this day, I just want to get high!
The phrase pipe dreams takes on a whole new meaning. I mean I still have dreams about smoking. I wake up in the morning and it takes me a minute to adjust. These dreams just keep reminding me that no matter how long I stay clean, I'm still just a phone call away from getting high. When I'm out anywhere in Santa Rosa, Rohnert Park or Windsor all I can think about is where the nearest dope house is. I guess my real question is, how can I change my mind, the way I think, the way I reason? Why is it that every time I get money, I see it at rocks on a scale. It's one thing to change your lifestyle, but it something totally different to change your mind.
